Renaissance and Chaos

It is funny how quickly time can fly by when you are sick and don't have time to think about how hard life is going to crush you down if you don't start putting in 18 hour days...  Know the feeling?  No?  ahh.. Well I suppose that it always sounds worse in the Autobiography.

I keep getting veiled threats, threats might be a strong word, but veiled comments at least about getting back to blogging.  I find this pretty amusing because from what I can see only like 3 people actually read this blog. At the same time this is not really the point of the blog.

I have had a few thoughts lately about life and how things are progressing.  I realized that most really successful people, by this I mean people who are ground breaking and completely on top of their field, have huge deficits in other areas of their life.  Their are of course exceptions to this but they are few.  One of the things that I have noticed about this is that this life that is so one dimensional has to be very sad and could explain why those people are in general considered jerks, conceded, depressed, or what not.  They do not know how to deal with things other than what they excel at.  What does this mean for the other people who are good at so many things that they have trouble focusing on any one thing, a Renaissance person if you will.  Do they often slip into obscurity? I think that is possible. Also these people likely often wind up in white collar, middle income jobs.  These people likely also do very well at their job, but do not excel past a certain point due to their inability to lock down on being great in one area.

I see many of these renaissance people and would likely be dumped into this category myself.  I am happy that is the case, but it is a bit of a terrifying situation because I won't be dumped into obscurity by the by the turn of the wheel. The next logical question would be how do you avoid this? is it possible? I think it has to be. I don't have a solid solution for it yet though.  My best guess at this point would be to use your "free or relaxing" time to do something you are passionate about. Most people waste so much time everyday because they make excuses like, I deserve to watch this movie and do nothing else because I am stressed, exhausted, ect.  I find this pretty amusing because though I fall into this category more often than not, I still know that if I take those two hours to do something I am passionate about, when I am done I am so much more fulfilled and when I am doing it, I stop being stressed or tired.

I am in a perpetual state of controlled chaos.

One Day,

C. Fletcher

Thoughts on Kierkegaard

Kierkegaard talks about how despair can be over oneself instead of over others. He gives examples that are basically stating that we have dreams that are unreachable which we try to define ourselves around, but when those dreams do not work out we fall into despair. He states that a man wants to become Caesar or nothing. When he does not become Caesar he falls into despair about his situation, not because he is jealous of not being able to achieve what Caesar achieved but because he is not what he had hoped to be and because he feels hopeless about himself. I think at this point Kierkegaard basically states that people move on past the despair. I think that in Today's society it is not this way always. I feel like in today's Society this despair is very detrimental. Often once someone feels that they can not achieve what they initially wanted they lose all hope. Society tells them that it is ok though; and what is important is that we dont worry about what we have not achieved, we should be happy with whatever happens. Not to continue to fight for what our true potential is but to underachieve and accept that we just can not achieve what our real potential is. Maybe this is because most people are stuck in the "Aesthetic phase" but I guess i just dont see how what Kierkegaard is saying can be completely true. I feel as though ideally he might have a good point, but society as it is today does not function ideally, it functions in a politically correct way that tells us to do whatever is easy and does not tax us much.